HolistiCinintya

She was a side dishes for his main course She was a figurant to support his main character She was sub player for his game She gave his best to be his side She thought it was her love story but actually she's in the middle someone else love story She thought she was the main character and the spotlight was hers She thought she was a center of the party but she was only a third party Such a well played game

Today, Life was hitting me so hard Holycow! This is really really hurt My chest is pain, it used to hurt on a left side when it started to break, Now It is hurt so bad, from the center and spread to every inchies of my lungs It's like Wolverin's claw  has ripped it into smallest pieces It caused a lot of cursing I can't fckin calm!!! I am freakin' mad!!! I consumed too much bul*sh*t  from you Oh My God I am so sorry, I should have wished you guys the best However I couldn't be that wise and super-girl at the moment Otherwise my prayer will end up become a disaster

I do exactly know that you are not my purpose  I mean I know I don’t want you and vice versa But I don’t know why this thought about you appear out of nowhere I do miss you, I am glad when you said that you missed me, I don’t know if you mean it or just play with me But I do like it when you said it to me As soon as you show yourself in front of me, I feel relieved You called my name just to trap me on your spell again I answered you from space between us I know it tortured you, This is what I want, keeping my energy exclusively from you I know no sorrow that I need to through when you are not around Because I know you’ll always be around But sometimes I do journey to the past just to remind me how good it was love

Thank you for being half cure of him Thank you for being brutally honest to me all the time However I realized He's the one who can cure me completely I can't stop visioning about him and me Imagining we have 2 little angels between us It's always a little too much But I love those corny thought I was being coward, facing him become my biggest fear Nevertheless today My subsconcious self is craving heart to heart conversation I know I am the fool from the first time Let's see, as soon as I met him, I will run into him with no hesitation That's all I want to do Embracing my comfort zone